There are two kinds of people expressing thoughts about UPG in the Lokean forums lately:
One side believes in it, and believes it should be shared, but unfortunately, there’s a lot of humble-bragging going on.
Especially from folks who see ‘signs’ in everything and are always talking about Loki is – or seems to be – with them 24/7.
Some of these folks even go as far as to worry needlessly if He isn’t ‘there’ for them, 24-7, thinking He must be angry with them, punishing them or ignoring them.
Sometimes I wonder if these are all victims of egregores rather than Gods.
On the other side of the UPG debate are the folks who – while believing in UPG – insist that UPG should not be shared because it’s personal and any information garnered from one’s own UPG is meant only for the individual who is experiencing it, and is therefore not for public consumption. Those folks bristle at the ridiculousness of other Lokeans who insist that Loki wants offerings of fried chicken or Ghiradelli chocolates, or that He keeps a running commentary in their heads over what they think, or eat, or wear – and how that’s wrong somehow. UPG should be kept private, they say.
Meanwhile, I find it strange, as I’ve realized that I have been on both sides of that argument:
You see, I have been that person who has written extensively of my experiences regarding Loki’s stranger requests – such as His insistence that I learn sign language, or learn how to swim, or those inevitable nudges that led me to study Rumi or read Italian poetry. I’ve documented the experiences in several of my blogs, sometimes detailing how He has come to me in dreams and meditations, to show me His associations with vultures or how much He loves offerings of lamb; or simply to check in with me regarding my personal growth and development, both literally and figuratively.
And yet, on the other hand, I’ve also been the skeptical person who inwardly holds back on discussing certain details of my UPG because some of it does feel too private, too personal or too crazy – and I question – and I think I will always question — my ability to discern ‘signs’ because I know how often I have been wrong in what I thought something meant – until I make the connection, often years after that initial occurrence that led me to formulate the UPG.
You see, I am well-aware that there are several forms of knowledge
– there’s what you know that you know
what you know that you don’t know
what you don’t know that you know
what you don’t know that you don’t know.
And it has happened often enough that what I thought was truth isn’t
because what hadn’t occurred to me
(because I was so busy chasing the wrong answer)
is what actually is the truth.
And so, over the years, I’ve found myself inwardly debating as to whether or not I should share my UPG experiences.
I’d like to think that sharing my UPG experiences could help someone else who struggles with self-doubt towards their experiences feel a little less crazy (more normal) or at least feel a little less alone (more confident) regarding the reality (validity) of their experiences:
But likewise, I get what the ‘UPG is private because it’s personal’ people are saying too – because I’ll often ask myself that question whenever I am sharing my UPG:
What is the purpose of my sharing this?
Am I looking for validation or acceptance?
Am I just looking for attention
Am I looking to help others?
As a case in point, I know that sometimes I look back on old blog entries I’ve written, and I want to cringe over what I’ve written. Why?
Because I look back and realize that what I used to think about what this or that interaction meant, and I cringe especially when I realize how wrong I was, or how I misunderstood the message.
And at times, I’ll even go as far as to wonder if this or that interaction had any message at all – because it is perfectly possible that I’d wanted so badly for there to have been a message that I convinced myself that I’d seen signs that may have never been there at all.
I know that has happened to me, and therefore, I am almost certain that it has happened to others. We are not static beings, and I do believe we are always changing, learning, growing in our knowledge.
And so, it is there that I sit on the fence of the UPG debate: It’s liminal, much like Loki Himself – which is that the answer is both Yes and No.
Especially when I consider the philosophical point that every devotional practice that is historically accepted today once began as someone’s UPG , therefore in that regard, UPG would be a natural and valid step in the evolution of devotional practice. But my skeptical meat-brain also recognizes the possibility that Loki is a God Who doesn’t have all the time in the world nor the desire to opine (let alone grouse) about my daily choices in clothing or what TV shows I’m watching. Perhaps it is better put that there’s aspects of others’ UPG of Loki that I just can’t relate to because I haven’t experienced Him in those aspects myself -but that doesn’t mean these are less meaningful or legitimate for those individuals who are experiencing those aspects of Him.
And yet I believe that we each have specific things to learn and do in our lives, and so who am I to say that Loki wouldn’t partake in a little TV viewing if that’s how a devotee can best connect with Him?
I imagine He’d be nothing if not clever, or at least, pragmatic when it comes to energetically connecting with others; and as a God, He’s likely had a lot of practice over the last 10,000 years.
Speaking of energy and connections, the key points for me here lie within the acceptance of these two beliefs:
First, that the Gods are energetic Beings (and in that, energy is simply vibration and movement in the Universe);
and secondly, that the Gods – as both ancient and powerful energetic beings – can and do interact with other energetic beings.
(And what are humans but energetic beings too – albeit significantly younger and less powerful than Gods?)
So, if one believes that They interact with human beings, one might next be moved to consider at what level the Gods interact:
If Gods are simply older, and in an energetic sense, more powerful energetic Beings than we are, who’s to say that a God such as Loki could not affect an electric power grid?
Who’s to say that Loki could not affect the electricity that powers a television set or the sonic vibrations that comprise the music on a radio?
Suddenly, the idea of UPG being a reality rather than a possibility might make more sense to you, then, and you may realize that pandoramancy is possible, as is the repetition of meaningful ‘signs and wonders’ would add to an already vibrant spiritual practice rather than distract from it.
But who am I to say?
It’s something to think about.